Her Old Cosmic Soul
In giving into all
That is my life
At this moment
The moon comes
Down to meet
Me in recognition
Her old cosmic soul
With her own
Dents and bruises
Know the strength
Of us humans
With our battered scars
And our exhausted bodies
Subject to
So
Many
Experiences
And still
There are those of us
Who choose to still
Keep walking
And meet one another
On the ground
Where the eternal foundations
Of understanding
Grace and love
Live on
In the Studio
If you have listened to the previous season, The Season of Contemplation, or the episodes recorded for this season, The Season of Climbing, you will know that I base these weekly writings and recordings based on my current life experience.
And because this topic is so fresh out of the oven, I decided to write about it, with hopes that you will also be able to take away something, if not just fulfilling a curiosity about what it has been like for me to create my own path.
For the next few weeks, I am going to start a mini series to talk about an unexpected truth I’ve been facing in committing to my dream. I’ll explore what it is, how it feels, but I won’t leave you hanging. I’ll tell you some antidotes. The stuff that cures the somewhat feeling of poisonous despair that can leave us feeling stuck or unable to go on sometimes.
You don’t have to take an antidote. You can leave it and wish to choose a different path if you feel like it. But we are on The Season of Climbing, my friends, and if you want to climb with me, I want to make sure we do this in the most wholesome of ways.
Before I begin, I want to preface it by saying that language can be limiting sometimes. I’ve been using the phrase I see everyone use on the internet: chasing dreams. But I don’t know if “chasing dreams” describes the totality of my experience.
But there is one thing that I know. It is that I have committed myself to a dream. To a version of a life I am creating for myself. A version where I am forging my own path. A path where I may also become a person I haven’t yet met.
Just like stories of travellers from long ago, who sailed off into distant lands without knowing what they will find, but with a burning curiosity to take the journey, is I think what dreams are made of.
This sounds sexy and brave. And the more I delve into social media culture, the more I can see how we are all led to believe in the highlights of leaving traditional jobs to “chase dreams.”
I’ll admit. I was naive when I first started on this path. And it only started hitting me recently how this decision has been impacting my life, in very real ways.
So before you consider chasing your own dream, or if you are in the middle of chasing one, I want to lay out some of these truths I’ve experienced, with hopes that it will give you a fuller context. From a fellow dreamer and do-er.
I’ve decided to name these experiences as “truths” because I think most often a truth is felt and lived, rather than a mental debate we have with ourselves.
And I really don’t like reading “10 steps to this…” or “10 ways to that…” anymore. I am over texts that make us feel really bad if we are not doing something remotely “right” in the so called miracle lists.
We are human. We are imperfect. We will do things wrong sometimes. We will get things right sometimes. But what matters is the general direction we are moving in. Not whether we have ticked a particular box of a made up rule someone has made for us.
On this particular climb, it’s important that we make our own rules. So with hopes that my experience would rather come to meet with your own consciousness rather than see it as an end all, be all, I’ve decided to really split this into smaller chunks of text.
No lists. No to do lists. Just parts that make up a fraction of a whole in this particular season of life. I’ve only ever wished for this season to allow me to learn about myself as a human being reincarnated on this crazy little planet called Earth, climbing my own tiny mountain as a dot of a human.
But somehow feeding into the wider consciousness of all the lives we could live whilst we are here. With this wish, if you’ve made it this far, I hope you can contribute your truths with me along the way.
So that we can all learn from each other and realise that we are not alone in our individual experiences.
So with that being said, stay tuned for next week where I will be sharing the first truth. (By the way, I don’t even know how many I will find. But that’s a part of the journey right?)
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