In Between New Beginnings

With every step we take 
We are evolving
And unfolding
Shedding our old skins
No longer akin
Leaving what has been
With a grin
To continually begin
Again
We are not aspiring 
About what we will 
Become
Because we come to be
At peace
With the piece 
Of ourselves 
That no longer fit 
In a box
We dance to the beat
Of the drums only 
we can hear
Is anyone giving us a cheer?
Who knows?!
We continue to grow
Regardless
Of the heartless
The hardship
The darkness
We harness
As the fuel 
For our fire 
We will not tire
Until we meet death
And take our final breath

Recently I’ve been contemplating on new beginnings.

For some of us, we leave the place or the space we are currently inhabiting out of boredom or a lack of challenge, or simply from the desire to experience something entirely new. It is driven out of every human being’s need to grow and to evolve in life. We have been explorers throughout many years and in the years to come, as a human race, we will continue to explore- past the point of our comfort zones and for the anticipation of receiving a sense of instant gratification and a continual sense of renewal.

But what if our current situation was completely fine? What if both on the outside and the inside, we lived a picture perfect life; a life parallel to the greatest dream we have ever had?

I watched a video today of Thomas from Yes Theory, a group who in the world of Youtube, taught me to seek discomfort in all areas of my life. He spoke on the camera about being in such a dream and how, after living, travelling and telling stories for the past seven years with his best friends and building a global community, he felt lost in life. How, suddenly, he hit a phase of depression and “slowly living as a shadow” of himself.

Now this isn’t a story about depression or feeling lost but I think at some point in our lives, we have all felt something similar. At least, at some point in our lives, we have felt the groundless surface beneath us with no glaringly obvious directions intuited from the part of us that have always seemed so sure of what we wanted in life and the path we were heading towards.

Thomas’s story have taught me that no matter where we are in life, no matter how old and how far along you are in your personal journey; no matter how it all looks from the external world of how we have it all together, there is no telling when this sense of groundlessness will come.

And the point that we all eventually want to know is also that there is no telling when this form of a new beginning will take shape. But before a form even begins to take shape, I think that in the moments between new beginnings, we are internally resting and wrestling with our desire to stay or to go. To stay in our present space and place or to go.

I think this kind of space in between is worth noting, worth observing and worth honouring. I think these decisions are never easy. Our decisions are layered with inner and outer expectations that come from ourselves, the people around us and our wider community and perhaps even the whole society at large. They are layered with our fears and doubt; hope and faith, and everything in between.

Rest assured, however, that we do not need to move so quickly. In this space, we can take our time.

Something that I continue to learn about resting in the in between moments of new beginnings is to first of all be kind. Be kind to the part of us that wants to go. Be kind to the part of us that is intuiting something that we may not see in full light and clarity at the present moment.

If this part of us feel irrational to our rational minds that we are leaving something good behind, we can take the time in between new beginnings to mourn in advance for the places, the spaces and the people that we may be leaving behind. To tell you the truth, the people in our lives may be living their own dreams or their own ideas of a life well-lived. That doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t follow our own path and live out our own expression.

As we honour the choices that are taking root, we can both celebrate and mourn for a time passing. I think such in between moments of new beginnings are so precious. It teaches us of how fleeting life is. Especially if we, as an astrologer once said to me, decide to “choose our own adventure novel.” Especially if we, as he also said, “live out many lives in one.”

Above all, I think we are not alone. We all go through many thresholds of new beginnings throughout our lifetimes. Some more obvious as rites of passages than others.

Whether you are about to take a leap of faith in a new beginning or in between the space you are inhabiting now and the new one that is appearing in front of your eyes, I hope you can be brave. I hope that you can walk with faith in what is to be revealed in time. I hope that you can trust your heart to even the most irrational decisions. I hope that you know you will make it, in whatever way you choose to define “making it.”

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Contemplations

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Are you in between new beginnings?

Or are you intuiting a new beginning for yourself?

What are you resting and wrestling with internally for journeying towards a new path?